yesterday was a day that is so unforgettable.
we made coach so angry that she do nt wan ot tok to us..
nt lik those tt she say dun wan to tok to us then in the end turn n continue tokin..
she said she doesnt wan to the she walk away...really those seriouse kind.
then ms tiru n mrs tay tok to us..
wan us to reflect n think bout how we had treated coach n how coach had treated us.
then coach kinda 'tok' to us...then suddenly ashe screamed.EVERYONE jumped.
cus she ask a question then we tok damn long to ans her...we didn even ans her in the end..
so now im thinkin...
is the captains suppose to stand up for the team in this kind of or keep the team out of this kind of situation in the 1st place?
issit oni the captains job to solve this kind of situation?
should the team be part of it too?or oni the captains are responsible?
issit cus the captains r nt doing their job well tt lead the team into this?
should we sometimes dun tink as us but tink as coach or outsiders?mayb ting wil look more simpler if we r nt the 1st person.
but anyway, i hope such situation wil nt happen again...
cus i 'promise' coach tt it wil nvr happen again or she can do anyting she wan wif me.

todays was the game SAC.
did ok on the 1st n 2nd quart.
but stil hav to ork on my relesaing of the ball fast n give the pass a little more power so tt it can travel faster.played as WD.
then in the 3rd n 4th quart, coach put me as C. GREAT!!!!!
did normal for 3rd quart..
the coach wan me to nt brin the ball so far back then release..mayb she tinks tt this is the reason y my release of ball was so slow.
so i tried in the 4th quart.
apparently it didn work cus the defender tap the cball twice in a row n the pass thrown by me.
so coach shouted(1st time in the whole game) at me.
so i 'woke up'..but then after tt didn really play much cus there was little time left..
coach had a tok wif us after the match.
she tok bout ting in general..as in the team's performance.then individual.
the team played really well in the 1st quart.then horribly in the 2nd quart.(which is wat always happen) did slightly better in the 3rd quart then worse in 4th quart.
coach's feedback bout my play was that sometimes she really dunno wu i am throwing the ball to. i really need to work on my passes. other teammates felt tt if the defenders were better, they would hav intercepted my passes....
wen bac to sch to run 1.2km wif timing then another 1.2 without timin as a punishment for nt playing consistently in the game.
i tink tt the team really shouldnt misplace coach's trust n tak advantage of coach's absence.
those wu did rann thier best in the 1.2km run WELL DONE!
those wu didn tink bout it..
how could we do this wen someting lik tt just happen yeaterday...
just tink bout how coach would feel..
we made her so mad oni yeaterday..so mad tt would giv up on us.
then we apologize n made promises.giving her this little hope tt we stil wan to win the championship.the crash it again just oni a few hours later...
i really tink tt we should reflect on ur own actions.
n dun expect others(wu ran their best) to change their timin cus of u(wu didn really run up to standard)....if tt had happened just now.

i just wanna say tt if we really wan to win this yr, we hav to work as a TEAM n listen to coach.
just...just tink bout wat had happen recently...
bout coach n ms champ n the attitude we hav for ur trainin n matches.
we play netball cus we want to rit?
to me, yes.cus i love netball.
wat bout u?.....

yes...
feel lik dying now..
stain to hate om now.
just found out tt NO ONE actually wants to win the comin trail then tak part in the name of our sch's name to compete wif all the other groups...
guess we really dun hav the time, passion, energy to tak part in it.eberyone is just doing it for the sake of doing...we were force to do it.yes.we were.
got up quite early in the mornin to do the stupid poetry slam ting, then did om....
stupid backdrop stand just couldnt stand.
so doing it tml durin om...
stil haven did ANY rehearsals yet.
tink we r the slowest slowest grp now...
really hate om...
y cant we just tak part in the spontaneous problem....
ur grp aso hav a prob.oni 6 can tak part in sp but we hav 7 ppl.question is wu is gg out?how r we gg to tel them?HOW!?
the sch could hav gave us the problem last yr so we hav the whole december hols to do it.
then we wont end up being so rush NOW!!
hate the sch's arrangement.

gg to hav netball everyday for the next wk...
sorryt if im repeatin this again...just y?
cus we hav to win the championships.
yes tt it.we hav n we can.

had trainin early in the mornin today.
according to wendi, we oni hav another 3 more sat trainin to go...
means competition season is gg to be over...means no more matches...means boring...
my 2.4 timing was gd..
as in improve quite alot after coach scolded me for being so unfit.
so now my timing is 12.16...which is still way far from my target, 11.45.
didn do any drill.just wen straight to triangle...
did lots of court work...
nt really tiring cus im oni defending.nt attaking.nt C. :)
did play full court after that, me as WD!!!!!!
hahahahaahahah!!!!!!
my fav position...
diandra trained wif us...but she is stil unwell...
coach had a tok wif diandra.
coach said : the most important ting (to me) was : we hav high chances of winning the championship this yr!!!!
cedar won sss by quite a big margine...ij won cedar by quite a big margine..
ha!!! everyone.just sit there n look how perfect is ij's play of netball. :D
just found out tt cedar, sss, dunman n another sch is in the same grp.wonder wu wil make thro'..
next wk, i wil b playing netball everyday except wed n sun...

wen out wif pet n lisa for lunch today.
its was gd but nt as 'educational' as last wk.
forgot wat we tok bout........... -.-
but i got no air / jordin sparks/chris brown from oet...
took lik one million yrs(sounding lik lisa) to get it over....
but i tink it was worth it.it was a nice song:)
change / sugarbabes is nice too...
but mothing can be compared to LOW!!!hahaha

[Intro - T-Pain]Mmmmmmmm
Let me talk to 'em
Let me talk to 'em
Mmmmmmm
Let me talk to 'em
C'mon!
[Chorus (T-Pain):]
Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hits the floor (she hits the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reebok's with the straps (with the straps)
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack (hey)
She hits the floor (she hits the floor)
Next thing you knowShawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low

[Flo-Rida]
(skip tis part us it just ok..nt lik others, gd)
[Chorus (T-Pain)]

[Flo-Rida]
Hey shawty what I gotta do to get you home
My jeans filled with guap and they're ready for showing
Cadillacs laid back for the sexy grown
Patron on the rocks that'll make you moan
One stack (come on), two stacks (come on), three stacks (come on)
Now that's three grand
What you think I'm playing baby girl I'm the man
I'm dealing rubberbands
That's when I threw her legs on my shoulders
I knew it was over
That heny and Cola got me like a soldier
She ready for Rover, I couldn't control her
So lucky on me I was just like clover
Shawty was hot like a toaster
Sorry but I had to fold her
Like a pornography poster
She showed her

[Chorus (T-Pain)]

[Flo-Rida]
Whoa shawty yeah she was worth the money
Little mama took my cash
And I ain't want it backThe way she bent that back
Got all them paper stacks
Tattoo above her crackI had to handle that
I was zoned in sexy woman
Let me show it make me want it
Two in the morning I'm zoned in
Them rosee bottles foaming
She wouldn't stop
Made it drop
Shawty dipped that pop and lock
Had to break her off that guap
Gal fire just like my glock

nvr getting bored of this song!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHCOOLCOOOLCOOOLCOOOL
i wen to watch STEP-UP 2
IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!
how i wish i could dance lik tt...
mayb one day wen i really dun wan/cnt play netball already, i wil go join dance lik rut...
but i dun tink i can dance tt well...
i dun even noe how to do simple steps....... :(
tt chase guy was gd...really.
i lov his dance moves...his dance n the song is lik one piece...cnt live without the other
and the choices of song............FABULOUS!!!!!!
especialy LOW by FLO-RIDA feat. T-Pain!!!!
EVERYONE should catch it....its really gd.
i got a quote from the movie.
JUST BE YOURSELF.LIFE IS TO SHORT TO BE SOMEONE ELSE.
so inspirational....
but wen issit tt someone really hav the courage to just break free and do wat she really wan?
i can't...stil waitin for tt energy to push me...to just break free.

the top 5 songs this wk:
5. don't stop the music
4. see you again
3. stop and stare
2. LOW!!!!!! everyone!!!vote for this song!!!
1. with you

im kinda worried now...
my mum didn really scold me for my bad results cus she noe tt its nt tt i dun understand
it just tt i dun hav time to study..
tt y she didn force me to go for tuition.
but she sound lik she is gg to call the sch any time to complain....
she almost..lucky my dad tok her nt into it.
hav to do well in the SA..
then she wil b convince tt im fine n then i can go for the sci trip...
haix...

but anyway,
everyone pls support step-up 2 n low if u haven:D

im depress...
got bac our CA1 progress report n i did really badly...
i didnt study...as in i dun remem stuying...mayb i did for some but i dun remem any sight of me at the study table...the oni ting i remem is me playin netball n getting scolded by coach...
JUST pass eng...
did well for chi...
ok for math but i expect more...cus i tink i should do better than average for the subjects i lik..
did GOOD for sci..the oni sub tt did me proud. :D
did ok for AEP...
could do much much better for geog..
could do much better for history...
lit is chocking/shocking...
got lik 60...
lik a bit lower than wat i got last yr...(so i should b happy)
but by rit, ALL of us r suppose to deprove by alot...
how can i beat natasha, how can i hav the same marks as sarah, how could i got mark tt was quite close to wat lisa got?this is so UNBELIEVABLE.

enough of tt.
the game was ok.
didn hav quite alot of mispasses.but most of it the defender tap but our player stil got it.if we were playing aganst stronger opponents, i would hav lost more then 5 goals.
did hav quite a few taps here n there.but i could hav caught them...
lasted for the whole game but wasn at my top form through out..
mayb its cus of pe today.but i had known tt i hav a match, but stil i carried on takin pe.or mayb its just tt i dun hav stamina.
need to cut down on my uneccessory mistakes lik obstruction, repossesion n contact.is we had played a stronger teams...it wil b costly...
so for the sake of the team, i am gg to run on days where there is no netball.even wen im nt playin C anymore.

coach was really erm...
abnormal(?) today...
through the whole game, she was so silent...
mayb it was true tt she is gg to try out new tingd,...lik nt telling us wat to do on court n wan us to figure it out urself on court...as in take responsibilities of ur own play.
the oni time she shouted, was at me wen i commit repossesion, tellin me to tie me brace n tell me tt passes hav to be more.
i must say tt coach was calm today.
n i prefer this kind of her compared to the commanding kind.i tink i can absorb much better wen she doesn shout...

sometimes i was tinkin if coach does visit our blogs to read ur 'reflection' of the particular trainin or match..then she go n figure out wat is our team's best type of learning...
or mayb im just tinkin too much...just cnt stop tinkin...

gg to watchstep-up 2 tml...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud so that no one hears you screaming
no you don't know what its like when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what its like to be like me to be hurt to
to feel lost to be left out in the dark to be kicked when you're down
you feel like you've been pushed around to be
on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you no
you don't know what its like
welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
are you sick of feeling so left out?
are you desperate to find something more before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around? with the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
no you don't know what its like when nothing feels alright
no you don't know what its like me to be hurt to
to feel lost to be left out in the dark to be kicked when you're down
you feel like you've been pushed around to be
on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like
welcome to my life
no one ever lied straight to your face
and no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be ok
everybody always gave you what you wanted
never had to work it was always there
you don't know what its like, what its like
to be hurt to feel lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when your down you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like
to be hurt to be lost to be left out in the dark
to be kicked when you're down you feel like you've been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you
no you don't know what its like
welcome to my life.

i think this is how i feel rit now...
those in bold are the relevant ones.
nt really all bout the friends part cus they are lik nice to me... :)
nt really those bout being left out...

it is such a great way/day to start a week...
to start a term...

dun feel lik gg into details.

ok...
todays trainin was fine...
did fun sprintin.then all the other normal stuff.i new midfield drill...combination of 3 diff drill.
did all of them under the sun=hot hot hot

i wan to apologize to fangying, clarice, janice, jaime n renee for my bad temper showed during the last drill.
saying sorry to wendi, kim n pet for the NOT OKAY passes to u all tt caused u all to redo n redo n redo..
'scold' mtself for sayin those bad words during trainin.

i just realise tt coach trained me as a C today n clarice as a WD...how!?
i dun wan to play C......... :(
lets hope diandra pls come bac...

then wen to shoot wif pet...tok bout lots of stuff
wen lunch wif lisa n pet....tok bout lots of Stuff too...
wen home wif pet.took the same bus...tok bout lot of stuff tee...
all th stuff i tok bout today were all so ramdon n new topics...

im lik dying soon...
i little sick..
hav om meeting then eng meetin tml...
one whole day of tokin again...
im lik startin to hate the stuff we do at non-curriculam, yet some contact to the stuff we do in school time...for example, PROJECTS!!!nt so much of hw...

now, i dun lik the step-up 2 mivie advertisement
cus it kinda remind me tt i hav such a busy life tt i
cnt do wat i wan= cnt watch tt movie= NO LIFE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yep...was my bdae yesterday.
i tink this yr's bdae was really special...
cus this is lik the 1st time i didnt organise something for myself n its KINDA a surprise...
before trainin, every1 was lik wishing me happy bdae...

then renee ask me to go get balls...so i went...
then i couldnt walk bac to the cannteen cus the others were pushin the tables to where the cage was..
when they are done, i walk bac..but the netball board caught my attention.its notices came off.
so wen im about to put it up, lisa came and pull me to the wash room to wash her DIRTY hands.when we are done, vanessa came in to wash her hands...
ow....so something is happenin n im nt allow to noe...
so i wen to the washroom...
when we came out, van n lisa walked in front and alycia was by my side.
she noes tt i noe bout it so she told me to act SURPRISE!!!

so yar...
they had candles on raisin cake and lots of sweets n chips
gave me a card wif all of their gd wishes..
so nice of them:)
thx every1 for this 'surprise party'
i really apprieciate it;)

then had trainin...did something lik tournament warm-up but nt really..quit tiring.
then did sprintin..
sorry steph for makin u do so many times of throw bac:(
did our normal drills with kah hui n kim
then triangle...it was ok today cus coach didn really pick on the small little mistakes and we were doing it in the canteen.not under tha sun..coach was in a gd mood..

did half way then wendi came n help me throw cus we were doin too slowly.
everything other kind was quite ok except the slam dunk one.
at the side, always forgot tt there is the wrong side pass n for the middke one couldnt slam dunk cus the ball keep slipping out of my right hand.did quit alot of times.
its strange cus normally, i would feel frustrated but then i was smiling..as in laughin at my own silly mistake...
then did midfield drill wif the seniors cus all the other midfield got transferred to help other 'department' n one of them couldnt run...oni hop.
i dun lik renee doin three feet on me cus she can always tap me ball away cus she hav long hands.
so lindsay n angela had a hard time doing wif me.
finally, janice came n save me(n them).
i wen over to the other side to do sometingg..
danielle was throwing, jaime standing in front of her n alycia behind jaime.
i start in between jainme n alycia, run to the left side, go round someting n recieve a pass from danielle...
cus jaime ws standin in front, she intercept the ball before it even reach me..then every time she got it, i ran n jumo in vain...
finally done wif 5 catches.
trainin ended.

then met my mum for dinner..
she bought a shoe bag for me cus my current one is really old n dirty n has quite a big hole.
chose a nike one cus adidas's design for shoe bag is nt ver nice...

then, i ended my day...

love today's trainin yoh!!!(except for the tiles jumpin part)
we did sprintin for dunno how long...
which i enjoy ver much:)
but then, my group n i were considered the slowest group, although we were doing quit well in the beginning..
so...we hav to do 44 V-sit-ups n 44 dips...
which after tt i cnt feel my hands anymore..
then wen on to do the normal drill.
by the time was kinda late already.
we ended trainin wif a set of piter pater n triangle..
which was kinda fine until wendi told me tt lisa was cryin,..actually sobbin
i couldn really see..
so i didn go up to her n comfort her or anyting..
mayb she was just havin difficulty breathin..was tt so?
BUT anyway...we manage to ger through it..

N HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDI PRINCESS!!!!
sound weird to call u princess....
BUT anyway...
really apprieciate u as a friend n captain
always there to remind us n encourage us..
which i tink is the most important ting to do as a captain.
n as a friend, u r FUNNY.hehehe
so..it had been great to noe u for the past one yr:)

i love to hear no air by jordin sparks n chri brown
but i hate it at the same time cus ts just so difficult to sing along cus of the unique/funny beat.
which again is the reason y i love it:)

having a aching neck now...
my mum said tt i slept too much at one go...mayb tts y
i slept at 9.30 yesterday nit, wike up at 9.45 today in the morn.

haven been able to blog nowadays cus really busy...
so its kinda lik a week 1 post.

last wk, the most memoriable ting i remem is winning the finals...
finally got ur 'revenge'...
feels so good to be refered as CHAMPIONS
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe
but then ur seniors lost...
but nvm.just make a good comeback in the nationals.

then on fri, we recieve our medals..
but before tt i heard the most dramatic story i hav ever heard...haix...
hope tt it wil nvr happen to me...

on sat, left tainin at 11.30 SHARP
so lik before tt did wat coach wan me to finish at 1 go..
cus tt trainin, we started ur triangle, n aso under the hot sun,
i was so tired.
did the midfield drill after triangle.
i didnt bother to do it well ...
dunno y i felt tt way..nt panting but just cnt stand up straight.
then finally did the new midfield drill.
1st we a pass from the side line, must get it near the semi circle.
then an underpass.must hit the bottom of the pole.
then get free n get another pass near the semi circle.
a lobe into the circle, must hit the ring/net of the pole.
run to the opposite side, receive a pass.
then throw back in the air, must hit the chair or cone(which is 45 degrees, mid distance between the pole n the edge of the semi circle.
1st try, ZERO of out 3.
then coach laugh at me:(
then finally , finish one set of 3 consecutive pass.
nbut throw back too hard, causing the chair to topple over ..2 times.
the got accused of mudering the shooters.
didn really feel tt tired at tt time mayb cus it ws fun:D
didnt end the trainin wif sprintin though coach said tt se would do more of it.

then wen for the council camp...it was fun fun fun through out.
then when it ended, i was dead beat...so obvious..bloodshot eyes.
but i guess its worth it..

since long did i post bout songs...
top 5 for this week is:
5.stop and stare one republic
4.low florida feat t-pain
3.with you chris brown
2. teardrops on my guitar taylor swift
1. don't stop the music rihana
love all of them especially low.
this song make me so high!!!!
there r also some other song tt r soothing to my ears...lik:
crush crush crush paramore
when u look me in the eye jonas brother
chasing pavements adele
see you again Hannah Motanna
sweetest girl akon
no air jordan sparks n chris brown
pieces of me ashlee simpsons
piece of me britney spears
like woah! aly n a.j.
stil hav quit alot but dun seem to remem them....

then today, im a good girl...
stayed home to do my math hw n read dicovery channel magazine, which is so interesting compared to the asian geographic, which most of the time i dun understand wat its tokin bout..
wen to the library to borrow books...
nt sure y im so into readin this yr..

in lik 4 days time wil b my birthday!!!!
but then accordin to the chinese calendar, tooday is aso my bdae...
nt gg to celebrate thi yr cus my mum said tt im too big for tt.
so im just gg to go out n eat wif my family...but where!?
n on tt day, i hav om meetin in the morn n trainin in the afternoon...hai...
y? y? y?????????cus nationals is comin.
the 1st match is on the 1st tuesday after the term break.

n lastly, shermaine, if u happen to read this post, im sorry i haven pass u ur present.promise i'll pass them to u tml.