today is SATURDAY!!!
quite looking forward to today cause i will be partcipating in this captain's ball carnival with my prin sch friends...since its prim sch friends, we have all become rusty cause really long never play together already, so didnt have any hope of winning anything..so i guess today is just going there to have fun:)but the sky is really dark now...how to have fun when you cannot play???!!

friday

it was the last day of the camp..toured around the company and got a talk about web 2.0(which again didnt understand what it was, some sharing thing i guess).and i also found out that those finger print thing that i saw on tv to get access into a place is no longer in use cause of its one big problem.terrorist may cut of the finger or even the hand to gett access.so now, they are using finger veins.then i got to see my own finger veins:)then also got to know about how a ATM machine work.

then the second half of the day we did a presentation about the camp..my group did a talk show which i was the host.we won the best presentation award, sharing 1st place with another grp who did a quiz competition.and by the presentation, i could see why our school had this star plus programme.students from 2/1 and 2/2 SHINE.we look so confident, engaging and professional up there compared to others from different schools.

maybe i could go into business and be consultant.in ths survey did in singapore of NTU, 9o% of business grads are hired even before they have graduated.that is if ever made it through.

top 3 songs for this week!!!
3. no air
2. 4 minutes (oh no!!!it is being knock off the no. 1 spot!!the question now is can they be no.1 again, next week?)
1. touch my body (i see that mariah carey beat madonna in s'pore)

leavin by jesse mccartney and your love is a lie by simple plan has got up the chart!!bye bye by mariah carey not so soon.take a bow by rihanna is doing good in the UK(1st) but not so in s'pore.stil out of the chart.the new song, that's not my name by the ting tings i so funny:)

and i saw in the newspaper that love is a lie by amy winehouse, its lyrics had came out in the cambridge exam!!! a spokesman said' cambridge dons live in the modern world and can appreciate talent from a myriad of diffeent fields just like anyone else.'just think about what might come out as unseen in literature exam of o levels..

haven got the time to watch gossip girl:(stil at epi 8...

wednesday

didnt go for training cause i went for IBM camp to introduce more girls to the IT industry..wasnt really looking forward to this cause i really suck at computer skills...dunno how i got all the certs for computer skills when i dont even remember what i did...so when i got there didnt really understand their PPT presentation cause they used all those IT terms..i dont remember any of them..then i found out that IT is kind of everything now...all that we have involve IT...and if i ever go into this industry, i will NOT go into hard/soft ware...mayb service..they got this person from their company to kind of give us a talk about her life in IBM...and this talk really scared me cause i have seriously no idea what i want to be when i grow up...i am so lost..

i want a job that i can earn alot(like obviously), have flexible time, get to do overseas businness trips, cannot be too stressful and cannot involve too much computer work..and i prefer those job where you dont get boss around by people...preferably, something to do with science and math cause they are so interesting:) although this doesnt fit any of the above, i was thinkin a forenstic(sp?) scientist...

stil sufferring from the effects of netball training.

thursday

went to snow city for tha camp today...play with 'snow' for quite a while..slide down the slide for dunno how many million times that my pants got wet and didnt bring another one to change so had to stay in it for the whole day..learn how to make ice cream there...and the nitrogen liquid they used to make it so damn cool...it is -165 degess celsious(?)!!!!

then went to NYP to look around their blocks for IT building...saw how it was like inside, totally look like a hospital..smell like one too. and i guess there are more computers than students...dont remember much what they told us bcause i died right at the begginning..only until i went to the multi media block then i started to come a life..saw the drawing the students made for their projects..super cool!!!mayb i might consider going there..but one bad thing bout it is that it needs lots of computer work..

yesterday was kind of the worst trainin i have seen...we have two people crying, two people vomitting.for me, i guess it was ok...not that i was fit..but i guess not the worst.we seriously need to thank GOD for letting it be cloudy during pitter patter cus it seem soooo long.i did with wendi.quite funny:)and also need to thank GOD that coach was not too picky about stuff and was concentrating more on tessa and rachel, they saved our day.

it was really not one of those training that i expected..i thought that it was the first training after a fruitful season so it would be more than a fun training but NO>>>did some shitty thing for warm up..ten pitter patter after that...it was lloooonngg.

in the morn, met up with my prim sch friends to discuss some stuff about the carnival coming up that we will be at this sat at ccab.no idea why its held there...

and now, im suffering from the effect from yeaterday.muscle ache EVERYWHERE.especially my back.bu im cool:)now in front of the computer, watching GOSSIP GIRL!!!it so so damn interesting, unexpected and and and just fabulous!!!! and erm...by the way, the show provides great music . . .

quite got over with a loss of a great history teacher...

mrs mara is leaving...im so depressed...

she is such a nice teacher, who made boring history came alive, taught us the right way to enjoy history..i was feeling sad wen she told us she was leaving but i didnt expect myself to be so depress wen i saw her probably the last time today, when she gave me this hug..i feel so guilty for laughing at at the beginning of the yr bout her hair and sometimes talking in her class.but i really appreciate her.she left for some personal reason that no one knew.then i was sad until now...and almost dont feel like eating lunch but then i did.there is nothing we could do to hold her back i guess... T.T



mrs mara(MM):

I'm leaving today 'cause I've

gotta do what's best for me

you'll be ok..I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here (nt so much of this)

I hope you understand

We might find our place in this

world someday

But at least for now

I gotta go my own way



MM:I hope you understand

US:I'm trying to understand

MM:We might find our place in this world someday

but at least for now

US:I want you to stay

MM:I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way



so now, im listening to better in time by leona lewis...

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

.........

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

.......

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

not really bye bye by mariah carey cus that would kinda meant that mrs mara is like dying..

oh yar...top songs for this week...
1. 4 minutes
2.touch my body
3.nine in the afternoon

im damn sad....its such a great loss... T.T

ok today although still haven gotten over yesterday, about ys not winning anything, even banner.was founder's day today.went to the primary school for mass.it was so hot!!!!and i so prefer groups pf students singing compared to one teacher solo.not that she was bad,...but just didnt like her.prayed that i would grow taller.

then went for the blood pressure thing.so it wasnt that bad.i told her that i missed my slot, then i just took my height and weight then go for the blood pressure thing.HAHA:)i didnt grow fat, but then i grew taller:) i am now officially 160 cm.i gues their measurement should be accurate.i didnt know my blood pressure but the auntie said that i am healthy.thats all that i need to know.

then went for council meeting.the sec 2s had received a huge project.we will br organising the voting of the student leaders for this yr.not only council board but the whole of the student leaders.i dunno..i feel like im not ready for it..mayb its just me.this is like quite an important event of the sch and its now laying in our hands.

then ran 2.4 with pet.stamina didnt 'deprove'.stil 12.29.so this means that i was not pushing myself hard enough during trainin.and from watching prince of tennis(which i finish already)had taught me something.only when you are having fun that you will show your best talent:)so from now onwards, im going to try to enjoy trainin.

now watching gossip girl episode 2.nat and serena is hot.chuck is ugly.wat is the relationship between serena's mother and dan's dad?somebody explain to me?

i am damn sad... :(
about the intra class competition.

i thought...
2/1 did well for banner, at least top 3...
2/1 will do well for rounders, 1st in fact...
2/1 will screwed up dance(its nvr our thing)but not really last...

in reality...
2/1 got 7th out of 8th classes.most possible reason, too childish, no strong synbolisms
2/1, in fact ME did not do as well as we could.we got 2nd, sharing the place with 2/8
2/1 did as expected for dance, coming in 5th.
hate pink.

so overall,
2/2 got 1st(as usual)
2/5 got 2nd(quite surprising as 2/3 did well enough to be 2nd, but 2/5 was GOOD)
2/6 got third(wich i kinda though would be 2/1when i haven know our banner result.didnt really have any traces of them in my memory but i guess the did well cus they are after all, 3rd)

but all in all, cannot deny that i had fun throughout the day and i truly apologize to those that i shouted to during the game.i guess i wanted to win too much, then giving my teamates too much pressure, thus not doing well.I AM REALLY SORRY.but im still damn sad about this... :(

and im also angry about man u winning the champions leagur title!!!!!>:(liverpool could have won man u!!!now, they have the same number of title leagues as liverpool, which was the top with 17 titles.GREAT!now we have to share our seats with the red devils.

i have seriously no idea what i did to my watch that ,made it have alarm that would ring again and again.it was so freaking annoying today while i was doing council duty.then pet took my hand and did something but failed.but then, at the end, we got to eat the refreshment and got waterbottle, silver/grey in colour.

got holiday homework!!!!!(not delighted at all)and have to go to sch on sat just to get our report book...

but i am so glad that DAVID COOK HAD WON THE AMERICAN IDOL with a huge number of votes, 12 million.people said that those words simon said, ' it was a knockout' was said purposely so that the fans will vote more for david cook.but wtv, DAVID COOK WON!!!!!!:)

holiday is coming!!!=the started of netball...

i am damn screwed!!!!!i just remember that i had missed my blood pressure session on ij fiesta!!!what am i suppose to do now!!!???this shows how responsible a girl i am...GREAT!!!what am i going to do now...like seriously.i-am-so-dead.

and erm..im feeling kind of sad now...i dont know how my parents can face my horrible results so calmly. never even raise their voice when i actually expectedthem to threatened me to quit netball and get me tuition.so, i felt even worse.ok.i have decided.i am going to work hard for me final year exam and make sure that i get the results that i am capable of getting and not let my parents and myself down.but exactly until when am i going to strat studying and how long will i last if i ever start stuying?well..that 2 goods questions asked:)

had been trying to watch gossip girl due to the highly recommendations from the other netballers but i just cant seem to find episode 1.someone teach/guide me????

i am damn bored now...have seriously no idea what is like the song i want to listen to...seem like they all died out....4 inutes is still no. 1 on the chart:)and by the way, the official video of take a bow by rihanna is damn cool.especially those part where she is in black.admire all of her except for her quite large forehead...

today was a bore...when to the library and actually forgot to borrow thw series of gossip girl book.dont know what i was rushing for..then stayed at home for the whole day.basically doing NOTHING.y not say, i just dont feel like doing anything...

mariah carey
bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up highWe will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye [3x])Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes byAnd soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

this is for mrs tan ai leng who had just someone really dear to her.ir mrs tan ever sees this, dont be too sad:)there are still lots of people out there who cares about you, like 2/1!!!

it has been damn long since i hav posted....really long..
im was realy tired, felt like i ws tortured to go eithout sleep for a million years.it had been a crazy week.

on wed, got my results bac, i did ok.same standard as before but everyone one else is improving except me.we have people like ng wan ying who was overseen last year topping 2 subjects, getting 100 for math and 92(i think) for history.so anyway, i am always so far from the top scorer.at least 20 marks different.everyone is doing so well for their exams and im not.i keep taking netball as an excuse for not doing well but is it really true?we have people like valerie who is in tennis and sarah in badminton, almost missing as many lessons as me and i dont see them doing as badly as i did, and even had sarah toping the level and lisa koh topping for lit.so anyway, did damn badly for mid years and i know this will probably affect which class i wil go to next year, what subjects i will take and eventually what i will be when i grow up, which i have totally no clue no.it is scary to eveb think about my future, so blur, so aimlessly.

then stayed back overnight in school on thur to prepare ij fiesta deco rnd the sch.slept at about 12, but got woken up by SOMEBODY at 1 to go toiloet, then was awake for quite a while before i fall asleep again.got woken at 5.15 to clear up the mess we had caused while decorating.then throughout that night, i saw the other side of pet, not the noisy and enthusiactic one, but the caring and thoughtfull one.

then started the long day.2/1 was doing duty for the whole of ij fiesta and most of us didi not even spend half of the coupons we have.i dunno what is better, having not enough coupons to spend like last year or like this year, too much coupons to spend.anyway, haunted house was not as scary but it all went well:)one of the students said that it was not that scary but the story plot was good, (surprise that they even know what was going on) and she can see the effort we put in.i guess i had fun doing my duties:)

and sarah, i didnt do anything.it was you who actually got the class going, getting everything ready for the big day, taking time to do shifts and characters, meeting the high demands of the school, the council board, the class.sometimes i really wonder what i have been doing for the school, the class as a councillor..have seriously no idea why i was even selected in the first place, since there is no going back, i have to take up the role,but what have i been doing?

and since when have i become this straightforward girl who dont think about what i was going to say, how it is going to affect how others felt, hurt..took some time to get my courage to apologize to her but she didnt reply...sometimes apologizing is just not enough. sometimes i just wish that things could be undone...

i guess the biggest problem about me is that im always sitting on thinkibng about stuffs going on in my life, but not doing anything that will help it go a bit more meaningful.what is the point of thinking when u know that you will not be doing anything about it???

i wish for a change, i change in me that i will not be so lazy, have to wait until the last minute before i do what i ahve to do.i dont want to be more selfish.i want to try to put others in front of me, think about them before i think about myself and try to help in everyway i can.not be so complacent, thinking that i am better than others.and lastly, dont always think that thing will go well, just relax abd wait.sometimes, its up to me to make sure that everything goes well.

but then again, it is this kind of things that makes life meaningfull, isnt it?it will be so boring if everything goes so well, and there is no up and down.it kinda feels good if u actually think about how stupid you gave been in the past, and how you have changed from that.it makes you feel proud of yourself:)

and erm...david cook is in the finale!!everyone pls support him!!and i love simple plan:)their songs are great cause they dont sing about anything else, they sing about life, the different emotion of people toward different things:)n i found so many liverpool fans!!!:)

I HATE MY SISTER!!!!!!!
im going to ruin this post if i talk bout her so im NOT!!!!

yesterday was a so shocked-meet-all-people day.i went out in the morning to the library ang my my mother's day gift for my mum.then i saw doraline at the bus-stop on the way to tp library.then saw thw tracker jacqueklin(?) walking past me like she is out to kill somebody.then i kinda saw tatyana comin out of the bus.but i wasnt sure if it was her cus i wasnt wearing my specs.but then kinda comfirn it her wen i saw her tp.then kinda saw this familiar face at the library, nt sure who she is but she just look like somebody i know. then on the bus home, saw this primary school friend.didnt say hi cus i seldom talk to her unless i have to cus she is really freaky.then went i reach home, i started wrapping the gifts i bought.then this call came ..started with a preson laughing like mad.

so it was pet and she kinda ask me to accompany her and lisa to run.so we met at the mrt station at supposely 4.30(a time where pet decided)but then we ended up waiting for her for dunno how long n found out that she was lying to us about how many stops to tp she had left.wen to sch to run 6 rnds in 10min..talk alot, tried to climd the wall but only pet could do it.then went to macs for dinner.

i had like fillet o fish burger but they didnt giv me the cheese:(they both shared like the 20 piece nuggets.the me n lisa had apple pie.pet got a bit from lisa.but i tink too big a bite that the filling spurt out from the other side of the pie.then from dunno hwere this insect came crashing into my palm.and my reaction was so slow that it took me like 3-5 sec to just swing my arn to get it away.

then we kinda went home at 7.45.went to fairprice to get chocolate with pet.but then she was so clumsy that she drop her packet of sweet 3 times if i didnt remem wrongly.so embarrassing!!!

and ermmm 4 MINUTES BY MADONNA AND JT is number 1 on the chart this wk!!!!!!

THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!!!!!

ANGELA!!!THE WATCH THAT I LENT YOU FOR YOUR

EXAM BECAUSE YOU ARE SEATING AT THE BACK AND

CANNOT SEE THE TIME IS NEEDED !!!! IT IS THE MAIN

CHARACTER THAT IS GOING TO APPEAR IN MY AEP

EXAM TML AND IF I DONT HAVE IT IM GOING TO DIE!!!! I

TRIED TO CALL YOU BUT THAT THING ASK ME TO LEAVE A

MSG!SO IF YOU HAVE SEEN THIS POST, PLS CONTACT

ME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!!!!

I REPEAT,THIS IS AN EMERGENCY!!!!

im going to do damn badly for mid yr.so horrible.base on all th answers i wrote the question, dun tink i wil even get a A1.it is that horrible.

english-nvr ever get higher than A2 for this subject.
chinese-so badly for oral, compo and listening compre.how high can i get even if my paper is gd?and bear in mind who is my DEAR chinese teacher.
mathematics-paper 2 was freaking difficult.and for paper 1, i made a stupid mistake cus i just have no common sense.there was this question bout proportion.then my ans was 8 1/3 MEN.i was so dumb to not rnd it up.
science-did study.but the paper was quite tricky.did quite ok, i guess...cus i dun really remember.
literature-horrible cus i took so much time to do character trait that i didnt study for lang use and i didt go and read through my past essays which came out for our unseen.crap through out for essay cua couldnt remember a thing bout captain torres anf the baber.
geography-spent bout 3 hrs studying for land.then half hr each for the other chps.weird.so not sure whether anything got into my head.then didnt prepare anything for those HOW EFFECTIVE questions which add up to 15 question.then while doing the paper, i was damn hungry so counldnt concentrate then was thinkin bout what to eat for lunch until i have to rush like hell at the end and did not ave any time to check.
history-quite bad cus didnt finish to paper.didnt finsh source base ang there was some structure qyestions i dunno how to do.
aep-have to wait till tml then i wil know.but i think wont go smoothly.

so all in all, i dont expect ANY A1s. great shi pei!!!

david cook always be my baby
mariah carey bye bye
natasha bedingfield pocket full of sunshine
GREAT SONGS!!!

science was ok.could have done better if i studied what i didnt study.like the universal indicator or have a bit more common sense like i didnt know the meat has proteins and i wrots down all, like fats and starch and carbohydrates.then all my guesses were wrong.so im not that lucky...and also im dead for lit.have all the notes but dont know how to arrange them. they are like all in a chunk. have to get them into chracter traits, language and theme.how to prepare for theme!?haix...

ok.i am way behind my study plan cus i lik spent the whole yesterday doing the things ms teo want us to do.and im not done YET. but i guess its not as bad as what lisa said.but then again, i still have another 4 more prose which i haven done a thing YET.AND im not done with my science.stupid digestion.>:#

besides doing lit yessterday, i also went out for dinner with like the big family.like all my uncles and aunties.went to orchid country club.the food there is not too bad, well, good.but then there is no air-con, then there was so many people there that we have to sit under the trees where there is no source of light.so when the wind blows, unwelcome guest comes:)there was one that was crawling on my sister's arm.then she was screaming.so, seated beside her, i have to get rod of IT for her.so i smack her in the arm.not really at IT :)erm..dun think i hit that thing but it disappear.so after that, everybody started hallucinating things crawling on them,.

the FOOD!!!i had like 2 1/2 lobster.then two bowls of lobster porridge.erm..by the way, it doesnt come in those each a small bowl kind where each of us have 1.it came in flower pot,yes.flower pot,those big ones.it was scary/shocking.half a bowl of rice.two chicken wings.dont know how many pieces of deer meat and fish and veggie and abalone.then i had ice cream.

then we went to my aunt's house to have more dessert.like all the different kinds of cheese cake and chocolate cakes:)then played Wii sports.actually im quite good in tennis:)but the this morning i woke up, my shoulder muscles are aching.i dunno h0ow im going to survive the medicine ball training.

this was the first dinner that i wasnt commented black.but instead, they said 'you are not very tall, arent you?'great the last thing that i want to hear people say about me.then they also said that the maximum i will grow till i stop will be 5cm.GREAT!then shi pei will see the world at 163cm forever.......i dun wan:(
if im given wishes, the first thing im going to wish for is growing taller.i want to grow 1cm per month until i am 172 cm tall.I WANT!!!!

panic at the disco to the chart again this week and im proud to say that 4 minutes by madonna and JT made it to no. 4 when it is their 1st week in the chart.the more i listen to what you got by colby o'donis, the more i love it:)

history paper was fair today..have some that i know how to do, some i dont know cus i thought chp 1 wont come out so didt study that chp and a question worth four marks came out for that.great!and also i didnt finish the paper.not that i was thinking more than i should but just had no time to write.guess i did quite ok.if those question i did got full marks, 40/50 shouldnt be a problem but i dun think so.hope i can get a A1 for hist...and i think quite clever for me to not worry about dates when others are trying so hard to remember them.

a bit behind my study plan but dont worry cause imcatchng up.i hope.has been spending alot of money snacks to eat while im studying.guess im growing fatter..

your love is a lie by simplae plan is nice:)plus break the ice + take a bow + 4 minutes + what you got + elevator.watch the result show of american idol yesterday. david cook is SAFE!!!well, i nvr thought that he would be eliminated so early but...his a great singer.he should win american idol.not the other david.who look totaly like a kid up there singing but cannot deny that he is actually singing.

WTH!!!!!!liverpool lose to chelsea with a score of 3-2!!!!that

means they will not be prociding to the finals to meet man u for

the final showdown that everyone is looking forwad to!!!!YY??!!

ok.they went into extra time casue they had a tie.drogba scored 2 and torres and babel each scored 1. then frank lampard scored the penalty awarded at extra time. cannot really blame hime cuase he is really a good player but who is this stupid drogba person to hit liverpool's net twice?!!curse him...

the players i like were all playing yesterday..torres, gerrard and lampard.they are all good players:)but hen again, why has liverpool lost to chelsea??!!i was loking forward to their performance at the finals..WTH...

another thing for me to be piss about was my sis.she just got scolded by my mom and phone confiscated due to not returning my mum missed calls and returning so late when she is suppose to be back home at lik 1 1/2 hr before.i dint belive her when she said that her geog teacher have everyone have to finish their assignment before they sre allowed to go hoe and they are not allow to call back home.so riculous right?either it is her that is stupid o the school that is stupid.

then today morning, she got like 40 bucks from my dad to buy her volley ball knee pad(which i have nothing to say) and go for movies.dunno how many movies she go for each month.i dont go as often.i guess the total number of times she got money from y parents for movies/concert this yr is half of the netball training we have.really cannot stand her.just got her phone confiscated(thanks to me who go n persuade my mum to return her and she did) and she still dunno how to be good and stay at home to study.

i think its not really fair somtimes that i have to study(not force by my parents.did it because i want to have good results) and she gets to go out with her friends.so stupid.sometimes i wish that she will just dissappear so that my whole family does not have to go through her nonsense.

and yes i am jealous that my parents are spending more time on her but i pity her cause she doesnt have the trust of my parents like i do and from a very young age.what is life if you cannot gain trust from others???hehehehehe

so i am being good today. i plan to stay at home all day to study.. :)by the way, love is a lie by simple plan is nice:)