Everyone said it's not going to be easy, but no one said it was going to be this hard. I kind of expect something like this to happen but not to such a great extent. How is it possible that no matter what or how I do it, I can never seem to get it?
I would consider my life to be smooth-sailing until maybe recently. True, I had setbacks but nothing too great that I can't overcome. And, I always had this group of super-friends to be with me through it all. No matter what happens, I always had that weird confidence that I will pull through. I really need that faith in myself now.
I think it's partially the change in environment, new friends, new routine (or the lack of) that is throwing me off balance and I really wish I can find the strength to make all these right again, to regain control of my world again.
I'm not used to feeling so helpless and I don't know what to do about it.
