everything is going so normaly that there is nothing to say about.

just that i think i need to sleep earlier...almost fell asleep australian math competition.
think it was ok.a lot of times left...so wen to finish the questions that i didnt feel lik doing cus it was just too long....

arh!!!!geog and hist test tml!!!!have to settle EP aso.i think it is a dumb and extra project>:(

need to go and study now...

looking forward to this weekene:)very interesting:D

haha.a bit confusion about the last post but all is good now.took back all that was mine.

i was damn scared wen they were releasing the council results.found out that i cared more for council compared to house comm but just going to do me best in everything:)i guess i was just plain lucky to get in.hahahaha.pet got in too!!!!tt means council camp wont be boring anymore..hehe:)then chien wen(the very lame 1), pamela and kai li(just plain nice people:) ) too.so now we have 5 councillors from 2/1 ! i think should be the class with the most no. of councillors.

now mrs wong dont have anything to say already..still rememberd the 1st thing she said to our class wen she taught us again this yr was, 'i am very disappointed in this class.u only have 2 councillors in here.tts because all of u all just sit there and dont participate in class.(which to a extent true..but then again still dont feel good wen something like that is said to u rit?)

mrs nicholas reminded me the duty of a councillor today.i almost forgot them all.a role model...and please, anyone who readds this should actually STOP EATING IN CLASS and STOP USING THE PHONE if not u r putting ur dear counillors darling in a spot.

She exemplifies the virtue of ' Nobless Oblige' in carrying out her responsibilities as a student leader recognizing what she has in herself and using that to serve others.
She possesses the qualities, such as perserverance and confidence, inherent in a well-balanced student who maneged to juggle her time between her studies abd her CCA.
Besides achieving commendable academic results, shown concern and compassion for others through her contributions to school and society, she also displayed leadership potential through her involvement in class and CCA activities.

basketball game is exciting but really tiring. i think this game woke me up. maybe netballers dunno ball games.maybe its just that netballers are really good at carrying out orders, thats why we are champions.maybe cus we hav a powerful mind behind our backs that do not allow us to fall that we are so successful now.maybe we will be nothing without the person pushing us so hard.

top 5 songs:
take a bow
shake it
always be my baby
damage
bye bye

recomended songs:

dairy of jane
party people
summertime
bust it baby part 2
can you hear me
heartbreaker
maybe

feeling damn horrible now.
piss is the word.
dewi called me to tell me that van is going to ny or nj(nt sure) so im the vice cap fpr red house.
i hate things that i given to me cus others dun wan it!

issit better to have everything or u excel in what u have?

got the house comm results yesterday.
congrats to petrina and sarah toh in successfully getting the vice cap position:D
i didnt get it..
but im feeling ok..its like mayb i didnt wan it that much..
maybe im immune to this kind of feelings.
or maybe im getting mature.

i not the i-want-everything kid that i used to be in the past.
maybe because i hav suffered so much wen i was lik that and it changed me...
it changed me to someone who dont aim so high and happy with everything i hav now and dont just think that i wan everything without thinkin if i hav time for them anot then wen all the stuff comes 2gether and i get so stress that i dunno what i wil do to myself and the problems in hand.

but i kind of miss my old self..
that i want everything i cnt get and dont have self.
these character makes me work even harder than i ever thought i could hav.
in the end, if i get it, i am happier than anyone else who got it too.
if i dont get, i am sadder than all those who didnt get it.after some recovery period, i work hard again.this process goes on and on till i get what i want.

i remembered how this character of my worries my mum that she cnt hold it any longer and tells me.

'u noe that u are too competitive?and u cnt take failure..u want everything that is the best but somethimes u cnt deal with what comes with it or the failure that u didnt get it..and these really upsets and worries me.u r lucky that u can deal with those that came in ur life so far..
but what will happen if someday u cnt deal with it?what if some day u xiang bu kai and jump off the building?what will happen to me?to ur grandmother?(who dotes on me more than other grandchildrens she have)to ur aunt?(who is like my 2nd mother cus she dont hav a daughter so she dotes on me like i was her daughter.love her alot.really appreciate her love.i learned alot from her)to ur dad and sis?i will lose a girl that i brought to life and fed for 12 yrs.'~and i stil remember what my reply was.'i wont.'i can imagine now how much i have hurt her then.

maybe its because of this confession of my mum that i started to think about what she said wen i was older(actually only one yr older wen i was sec 1.)she told me all this wen i couldnt make my decision wen i was in p6.whether to go the rgs, cedar, SSS of where they want me to go, xin ming or st nicks.surprse that u dont see ij here cus ij only came to my rescue from misery wen my parents dont wan me to go to SSS cus too far then hav to stay there, cedar wen trransport was a problem, xim ming and st micks which i really dont like and rgs, which i 4got to hand in all the materials, testimonial and stuff...then the coach thought that i dont wan to go there so she didnt ask me again.ij saved me.

i dont regret my decision in coming to ij.with all that i hav now, i cannot complain anymore.i remembered how upset i was wen im in sec 1 and not in main 7. i ask my prim sch coach y i wasnt in main team at the end of the season wen i only got to play wen jaime got injured.issit cus im not gd enough..then she told me not.she told me that the rgs coach was so sad and wasted wen i didnt manage to get into their sch due to some miscommunication.she encouraged me to continue to work harder and i wil get the results.well, at least i noe that in the world, there are still some ppl who recognise me.so after that, i was determined to show coach mun what i hav got.i dont want stop doing something i really love and i want to live with no regrets.this applies to me now that in b'div, the competition is so strong.we have so many strong player and u just need one mistke to be out of the running or u just need one good play and u r selected.i will always remember what me jo teo said, in nature, only the strongest will survive.

it was this never-back-down attitude that i like anout myself in the past.
now, it is this positive thinking me that i like abou myself.

have no idea why all this memories came to me and before i knew it, my fingers are doing their job.im feeling so much better now to realise that it took my really long and hard time to reach where i am now and i am not going to let anyhting, ANYTHING(which include my feelings) to snatched it away from me.i will be contented with what i have now and will continue to work harder to reach my pacer(which is also my aim for my secondary sch life) and finally run beyond her.yes i wil do that.+

suppose to announce the results to the fashion parade racial harmony today during assembly.but they didnt..quite excited for the results.i think we going to get 2nd or 3rd. 2/7 costumes ver nice, 2/8 very special.

quite fun to walk down the hall with the funny looking costume, not exactly comfortable.then quite difficult walk cus cannot use my noral style.guess i did quite a great job at walking:)then all the pose also...ran out of pose for the bangles, so didnt some funny funny one...tt was a mistake.
and i really need to clarify one thing, all that was shown on stage and off stage with the costume was FOR SHOW ONLY.

school was ok today:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERRY!
sorry that i didnt wish u happy bdae cus i didnt noe until just now we i went to ur blog, which i found out that your link is not working, then spending anoher 10 minutes looking for ur blog.

tired.lethargic.sad.restless.dead.
these r what im feeling now.
early in the morn go to the scho for some model thing that stupid lisa koh volunteered me.
then lunch.
then netball carnival.
guess its ok just that im really sorry about alycia that i 4got to tell coach that she can only make it for one saturday.
so she have to come down today even when she is not feeling well.im sorry alycia. :(
it rained today.
a rain that i didnt appreciate it and didnt know why.
the weather was good at the beginning.
just a litle little sunny.
then the clouds came.
then sky turned dark.
drip drop drip drop.
down it came.
then splitter splatter.
stop game.
waited.
waited.
waited.
warm up.
played.
post pone to 2 AUG!!!!!!
any idea what day is that???
its honours day.
the day where all efforts are regconise.
the day that i receive the 1st and 2nd prize of my secondary sch life.
then again, this may be my last chance to attend honours day.
dont think i wil be able to do so well, like achieve so many things in my another 2 yrs.
this is probably the peak of my sec sch life.
but i just have to give in to netball AGAIN.
it seem like netball is everything and everywhere and everytime.
we are still as busy when its off season.
friendly match with australians.
carnivals.
meaningless friendly match with the bball ppl.
but because i really like netball, tt y im willing to give up almost anything for it.
but stil i will feel a bit sad.
had a really long and nice talk with angela in the train.
a topic that i hav nvr discussed with anyone.
not in prim sch cus i was nt the 'victim'.
she really made me think about who deserve what and who do not deserve what.
that how sometimes life sucks.
just because u didnt realise that THAT was the chance to prove yourself, u r no longer in the running anyhow.
u dunno when to next chance is comin or nt or maybe never.
how sometimes no matter how hard u work that it will never pay off because of something that u dont hav and probably wil never have.
something that is lacking that even if we want to do something about it, we cnt cus there is just no solution.
just what is fair???
how realistis is the real world.
how things just carry on no matter how u feel.

spent the whole sat in school painting(spray paint) the gallerry steps with my cute little aeroplanes and irs little dots.from far, he gallerry step look so messy.but look damn nice from near, esp the steps.even the wanton person said so:)cus there are my aeroplanes, sherry's 'simple i virtue, steadfast in duty', sheryl goh's stencil and ping en, valerie and angela CHIJ.there are also others painted by others.

my black hand holding up eugenia's painting:)

sherry;s and my handprint:)

my first aeroplane:) help from sherry:)

my last plane:)

if im not wrong, this is done by sheryl:)
sherry;s and my cloud:D

my hand with my plane and our hand print:Dthis girl ver cute but inapproproate.belt low, pinafore short.collar unbutton.hav to capture her.

gigantic hand chasing the plane:0

my hand print:D
sherry and my initial:)
my black hand with jasmine and nia's 'hand'

im a bit jealous of those who got to play netball.i want to play!!!!>:(congrat to pet who won the shooting competition and hope that alycia wll be able to convince her mother to allow her for the pesta sukan carnival next sat.

dont remem what happen in school today.just that dont,like ep cus hav to work with that person.
aep was good:)didi research and found really exciting stuff about this woman artist.decided that i should anout her:)her life really very eventful:/that ms ho told us about her sad story..shant tell u all cus its not ver nice.but i think ms ho ver brave leh:D

then suppose to be the lastest for dinner before drama nit but ended up being the earliest. always like that..then went to macs saw that sheryn(?) girl and hr frens. always see them there.and thank god that my hair didnt look bad when i reach sch.u dont want to know what lisa and pet were trying to do with my hair.saw diandra on the way so we went together.

drama nit wasnt really gd.a little between ok and not good.story was a bit stupid(esp the names of the characters).the story was trying to convey to us something but wasnt really successful.but good effort i must say:)didnt get half of the jokes that the others were laughing about-.-
i so prefer a musical and it shouldnt be held at our school cause the people from row 5 to the back cannot see a thing.wasted 5 bucks i would say...the other 5 was for their effort.

listen to:

maybe jay sean.
summer time news kida on the block.
7 things miley cyrus
when i grow up pussycat dolls

top 12 songs:
12. leavin
11. your love is a lie
10.thats what you get:)
9.lollipop
8.bye bye
7.beat it
6.damage
5.shake it
4.fall for you
3.better in time
2.always be my baby
1. take a bow

here now to blog about today!!!!
didnt start out well but all is now!!!(which is the most important thing:) )
meet the peeps at the pole.talk about stuff.dont really remem except for the accident thing that lisa and diandra saw.
then lesson was ok.fun i guess, cause i wasnt dozing off, even at chinese.so proud of myself:)
then was netball.did 6 rnds with timing, but my timing was bad i think.so im going to run to build up my stamina for the carnival on sat.but cnt really run right now(tell y u later on)

then we did pitter patter.did with diandra.her higest point for me was good, maybe cause we are kinda the same height:)was really surprised, or maybe more of shock, when i saw the first few coming.there HUGE!both upwards and sideways.afraid that i would fall and not being able to throw over their hands.but then again, was kinda sad when coach didnt put my down for half court, but when i felt that way, she put me down right away:)

played for the whole of first game.was really afraid that she would take me out so i really tried to prove myself that im worthy of that position.and finally, god gave me a chance.was really proud of myself when i got that interception from this HUGE GD when she ran out for center pass.im like a mouse stealing peanuts from an elephant and mighty mouse succeded!!!but then again, of course have quite a few mispasses here and there.lik the one to kah hui and the one that jaime was so free but i didnt throw to her and threw to diandra instead then it got tap away.

here comes to the few most interesting part of the match.one was jaime, when she was in the circlr defending, i was just standing outside, about 2m away from her.dunno what happen(most prob get knock down by the HUGE GD), jaime fell on her bum, then back then her head hit the ground with a tud.then im like, how come jaime is so clumsy and a bit dumb.fall on so many place already still can fall on her head?! then was diandra.i think her head kinda got knock by the opponent, then while she was saying ouch, the ball landed on her head.

and now, the most umglam thing that happen.

running to catch the ball...
ok.faster catch, turn the release the ball fast.

caught the ball and bump into SOMETHING
what was that..it so soft and forceful???

rebound from the HUGE GD and fell
omg!!!!where am i flying to!!???wait, my landing foot in still on the ground.oh no!its being twisted!the field is turning up side down.i am so dead.never ever think of walking again.my leg is breaking!!!help!!!

for one second, i thought that i was in the soccer field playing soccer than someone slided then i fell and im holding up leg so that the refree will call.then dunno how, i kinda stood up and didnt fell anything.then it came back.oh!the ankle, i thought that GD broke it.then i walk, ok maybe sprain.then jog, maybe twisted.i ran, maybe its not that serious as i thought i would be.

but according to what kimberly saw, i flew and fell but didnt roll on the floor.but shoulnt i have any scratches of what on me????well, i dont have any..tts weird.a great experience i gues..now i know how strong my ankles are.they can withstand giants:D

school was good today:)
didnt rush my hw cus i finish them already.
then hhf and pe was gd, math wasok, we [lotted graph, which i think its a bit funny how we couldnt really understand what mrs wong was talking about where tp plot and about maximising the space.geog was gd too:)did project work with lisa, racel and ashley.very funny:Denglish was excellent:) had been quite a long time since i never felt sleepy during eng.had a mini competition.grp up with lisa, racel and sahley again.best team for the crossword puzzle:) then was ok durin compre, earn som points but lost more then what we earn.so in the end, we came in 3rd with no 2nd.could hav won 1st if we didnt attemp any question. but nvm, had fun:)

little india trip was great!!! had much great times with jul, yl and cy:)went to the hindu temple, which i find the most interesting about the statues, the stories and the moral that they carry.
but, im nt sure to count myself lucky or not.i step on bird shit.which i think is from those pigeon in the temple.yes, of all people, i was the only one who step on it.so do i count this as a blessing of a curse?

looking forward to the friendly tml:)gg to play my best(if i get a chance to play) and have lots of fun.but im a bit, (ok, mayb not a bit) about my passes:(

and i think lisa look weird in braces...but its nice in a way...now i want to get one too...

i seriously dunno what im doing these days.i haven been doing my homework, then go to school then rush.haven touched the computer for at least 2 days.kept giving myself exucse that im sick, that after this show i will do, after this chapter of my book will do, after this sudoku puzzle will do, durin the commercial will do.then ended up going to sleep and rushing through everthing in school the next day.i think im getting from bad to worst.

listen now shipei, now that netball season is over, u have no excuse to not do well. dont let ANYTHING distract you.and follow your plan.dont plan then dont follow, then what is the use of planning?remember, if u dont work hard, everyone is going to improve and take your place. duty of a student is to study FIRST.everything comes in next!do dont let house comm selection get in your way of getting into top 20 of the level,do u get me?yes!go shi pei!

check these out:)
closer ne-yo
forever chris brown
maybe jay sean
labels or love fergie

on lookin forward to the nine o'clock show.my mum is damn funny.she wanted to buy biini to wear too when she saw the bikinis on the show.then obviously i told her not to cus she hav this big tummy from giving birth to me n my sis.then she hmp me o.0 then through out the show, she is point ing out all those people in bikini with tummy to me, showng that if they can then y not, espesially the one where dawn fell and her tummy was damn huge then.then my mum started complaining again.my mum is funny.i love her:)so dont let her down with your results ok?

thursday.

best geog lesson under ms soh so (haha) far cause this was one lesson when we had to do research on our own and she just have to sit at the teachers table and keep her mouth shut, which was doing all of us a great deed cause her voice was booming.something lik ms chua's but a bit more irritating.lit was good.i answered her question and got a jelly.not that i got the jelly tts y im happy(ok.partially cause of that). but i think im getting better n better at this analysing thing.and i answered the question, hitting the bull's eye.(a tap on my back:) )

my sickness was getting worse as time passes.used up 10 WHOLE PACKETS of tissue.imagine how bad it was. plus, had a terrible headache.didnt want to be like the spoiler so went on with movies with pet and lisa.i guess i felt better watching movie with them compared to resting at home:) then went to macs and great stuff happen there:)me, pet n lisa can be actress when we grow up:)

didnt hear any news about the house comm interview unlike lisa and pet.but i think i would rather not hear anything about it seeing that how unsure and sad(mayb) they were at the news, dunno whether reliable anot.

slept at 7.

friday

now i realise how good our school is.other school dont have any celebration or gifts.mass was ok. the games was FUN!!!i partnered lisa and valerie.we ran damn fadt and could dribble the ball.not good but well enough to go everywhere with the ball lik other triplets. the the forehead one was gross.back was ok.just that me n lisa were to busy trying different styles of movin that we forgot about valerie, which ebded up being drag by us.then it was funny to see people being drag by their teamates also:D thus is the part.for this whole event, there was this guy/gay who came and kinda 'host' it.
it progress from~haha,tt funny~ok... ~erm...do u mind stopping?~wth..thick-skin~i want to punch u.i guess he destroyed my whole fun-filled mood with his disgusting/disturbing/irritating/annoying/gross antics. seriuosly. he is one man that the earth could survive without.
than concert was.good.band was great.saw mrs tan ans ms jo teo dancing to hot latin.choir was ok cus didnt understand what they were singing about.dance was good.very energetic.dance steps was good.dancers were the best.but the thing that i feel is missing in synchronization. and i think its really unapropriate for the elderly to watch the performance. saw this dancer who was really godd.she had a birth mark, which i remembered clearly was the dancer that impressed me on cca day when i was a sec 1. found out that her name is samantha..GREAT JOB!

then 'celebrate' pok pok's birthday.i would be moved to tears if my dear darlings would do that for me:)since she is up at her desk on the 2nd level, she can tear all she want cause we cnt see them.i think its very nice of us to do that, but must thank the exco for comin up with the idea:)

going for aep now...

i want a germany and liverpool jersey!!!! and by the way, spain won the euro cup all thanks to TORRES!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha dunno i should be happy or sad cause i suport both teams:D

dont remem anything happening yesterday...
oni that i did council duty.
oh...i almost forgot.

i went for vice-cap interview.
i answer 2 question wrongly..not really wrong but to my disadvantage.
dont really wish to revealy it.
i was damn scared before that but wen i got in, everyone was doing their own things.
the four caps were seated in a circle talking among themselves.
ms chua msging on her phone.ms ng looking at ms chua.
no one seem to bother about me.
then i sat down then questions kept coming.
was really silly cause 1/3 of the questions they ask me dunno how many times already.
then i almost fell off the chair TWICE.
they kinda saw...sp embarrassing.
then went i go out, heard from lisa and sarah that there were 2 roars of laughter.
lik only my interview had laughter i guess.dunno if thats a good thing.
anyone know when we gg to know the results?

n erm got our cca photos already.i look damn funny in two of them.

went for aep outdoor trip today, thus missing trg:)or maybe :(
i was on the bus wen i saw them playing a match.
but also not really a match.oh...half court, which lisa(GK) said its damn tiring.
i kinda miss trg...
hope that i can get a chance to play against the international team next thur.
and will put up a good fight.
but a bit worried bout my passes:(

gtg do my lit now...
hope that tml can go and watch get smart.didnt get to watch it with pet and lisa cause something went wrong tt day.some miss communicaton.