I LOVE BRITNEY!

Im not a girl, not yet a woman

I used to think
I had the answers to everything,
But now I know
Life doesn't always go my way
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
There is no need to protect me.
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own.
I've seen so much more than you know now,
So don't tell me to shut my eyes.

I'm not a girl,
But if you look at me closely,
You will see it my eyes.
This girl will always find
Her way.

I'm not a girl
(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe).
Not Yet a woman
(I'm just trying to find the woman in me, yeah).
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine (That is mine),
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (All I need),
A moment that is mine,
While I'm in between.

I'm not a girl,
Not yet a woman.

After you have mixed the ingredients, put the ''dough'' into the ''oven'', wait for about 10 minutes for it to hop and run around first and at the end of the long wait, you get FRESHLY BAKED NETTIES out from the ''oven''!



Yes, today weather was that hot during the run-.-

That's what happen to dreams. Life gets in the way. ~ from Handle with Care Jodi Picoult

Pet changed my blogskin.

I just created my own nightmare.

You can go higher, You can go deeper
There are no boundaries, Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dream.

This is all a lie.

I just said no to something that i had aimed for when i just joined it and i hope that i wont regret this decision in the future. Nevertheless, i will provide all the help they need. I just hope that people understand and accept my decision, and dont feel sorry for me.

From this, i have learnt the courage to back away.

OMG...
After all the intense standing, sitting, walking and kneeling, (rituals)
I AM DEAD BEAT!

And hooray, training tml-.-
Hope that ...

This is where i will be tomorrow if...

Hey all,
Something bad happened and my long awaited trip is cancelled.
So I'm here if you need to call or something.

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry

Your mask is strength.
You try hard to fend for yourself.
You do not let others do things for you.
You often need to be in control of a situation, even if you can't handle it alone.
You are always putting on a front, even if you don't feel strong at all.
You don't let others see you when you're vulnerable, because you barely let your self be.
Despite your flaws of always trying to act strong, you are a strong person, with strong character that can do anything you put your mind to.
A lot of the times you really don't need anyone, and are perfectly capable on your own.
However, there are times you find yourself wanting to let someone in but are not really sure how to..

Just like what i thought yesterday, my movements are restricted today due the muscle aches.

Permanent by David Cook

Is this the moment where i look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you`ll never see me cry

I was looking forward to yesterday's training, ready to break a leg but it was bad:(
It brought me back to about a year ago, when the same thing happen to me during training and i innocently thought that i was dying. Suddenly, patches of black spots started to appear in my vision till there is nothing in sight except darkness. Energy was rapidly draining out of me and i fell back towards the wall for support. I have no idea how long i was in this state but trust me, the feeling is horrible. After training, heard from Fang Ying that i sudden stood up from my resting position and started walking to nowhere and even asked her where i was going. The scary part is i dont even remember doing it.

I find it so frightening that what if one day, my unconscious mind took over my body. I dont know what i would do, if it's still me.