War of the Worlds

Yes, I was watching the show last night while studying for my O levels mother tongue paper today. The plot was stupid and end of story.

However, they brought out something worth talking about, human nature.

Tom Cruise was the only one who manage to get his car working. Possibly the only car in the whole town. He plans a deserted route to Boston to meet his wife along with his 2 children in order to avoid any human contact. However, on the way, they see a long stream of people walking in the same direction. We see old people with their assets in a supermarket cart, mothers holding on dearly to their child and curious and jealous stares from onlookers. Men started jumping and hopping onto the car, some commanding them to stop the car. They pulled Tom and his children out. A fight broke out over the possession of the car. Climax happen when a man took out his gun and shot another man behind the wheel.

This is the true colours of human nature. When our own survivor is at stack, anything or anyone in our way must be destroyed. Even if it means becoming a murderer. At a time like this, it seems like the only possible way to continue living is by ending the life of another living. We cannot judge if his action is right or wrong because that man has no other options. It is a 'I have to do it' and not a 'I want to do it'. One can argue that no one chose to do what he did, but that is because they do not have the courage to defend their own life.

... :(

Can we pretend that airplanes in night skies are shooting stars,
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now.

Practise

We all know that practise makes perfect. But what happens when you stop practising when you have reached perfection?

Yesterday's training was scary in a way because I was so weak. I can throw and catch, but not to my best of my ability. When I try to push myself, silly mistakes like stepping comes into play. The skills that took months of training to polish is rusty. Now, I can only dream about catching all the 'impossible passes'.

Hopefully, in the next 3 trainings, I will be able to gain better control of my body and not play like someone who has never played netball before.

On a lighter note, I am really excited for the New Zealand trip. Something not felt in the 2 previous trips.

Sparks fly, Its like electricity
I might die, ..... breathe

This was stuck in my head the whole of yesterday.
It is Kissin' U by Miranda Cosgrove

Myself

I am so excited for Founder's Day mass! The only other mass that I have taken part in was the teachers' day mass and I dont exactly have very good memories.

Our name is one the very few things that live with us our whole life. It is a part of our identity, image and personality. Since it is unique to everyone, why is it that some people prefer to call ' That girl over there', 'Hey hey', when they obviously know your name!

IJ Spirit day + IJ Fiesta

We ended Fiesta on a high note before getting our hands down on cleaning up the mess we caused while having fun. The preparation for it was really tiring and sometimes brain damaging but I love it. Nothing made me feel more satisfied, more capable than planning an event and seeing how magic unfolds. Then again, it couldnt have been a success without the Leadership comm, PSG, Alumni, teachers, students and the very efficient group of 7 superwoman and Super leaders!

One new aspect I realised about the IJ Spirit was what Ms Jeya said, spontaneous. The spontaneity I have seen during the event was from everyone ranging from the SLs, students, teashers and EX-IJ girls. You see teachers you would never imagine ( Mr Armstrong, Ms Champion, Mrs Magdalen Low, Ms Nicole Teo) manning a food stall, (Mrs Shirley Yeung, Ms Keriann) getting dunked and (Mrs Low at the Viking Ship with Mr Fausta Tan, which was also at Hoops) playing all the games and enjoying themselves. It is this factor that the IJ environment has cultivated that it has made us a bunch of people with fresh, new, crazy ideas, that are energetic, enthusiactic, dynamic and vibrant. A spirit like these cannot be found anywhere.

Memorable scenes
- Perfect decorations in the hall and around the school
- Whole school singing along during Spirit Day concert
- Mrs Low on the Viking Ship
- Suntanning with my NBSs
- Beatrice and Hanisah trying with all their might to hold up the deflating castle
- Ms Keriann getting dunked
- Whole school singing along at max volume in the canteen
- Wendi and Melissa stressed up with performance and DJs and disobedient wires
- Chaos at the quadrangle
- Valerie and Sheryl painting nails and Nicole doing tattoo
- Awesome audience at the perfoamances
- Everyone cleaning up even though we were dead beat

Now that this is close to being over, I cant help feeling an emptiness in my heart because I will miss planning such a meaningful event.

Results

People are like that, arent we?
We are like that, arent we?

Just showed my mum my results for midyears. All she could say was, 'what are you going to do about the C5 (for ss/geog)?'

In primary, there was this once I did not do well for math, but so did the rest of the level. I explained to my mum and she said she didnt care how the others did and I still have to do well even if the paper was indeed hard. Ever since then, I did not explain to her anymore if I did any subjects badly, or even well. Or how I was compared to the rest of the level. I guess it did not matter to her.

Likewise, this time round, I did not say anything. I am just sad that she did not see that there is an improvement in all other subjects. Subjects that are suppose to stay in the distinction band did and subjects that are B3 and B4 improved by a band. The only thing that slipped was SS/geog. And AEP of course.

It is just so easy to to look at the bad points and ignore all the good points. It is painful to be judge by negative aspects and we are never judge by positive aspects. I guess we are like that. All like that.

And this might be the reason why I am who I am. I cannot fall even if the wall that hit me was the weight if the whole universe. Not falling is not enough, I have to break that freaking wall.

Attention

After enjoying your attention for her whole life, You cannot just decide not to give her the attention and just dont do it. It crushes her. Whats make it worst is that she doent know how to put it across to you that she doesnt feel good and she spents her whole day thinking about exactly what has gone wrong. The only cause of problem she can think is her own sister. But there is no way to know because she does not have to guts to voice it out. Because she cannot be seen as an insecure person, who actually needs your attention. Who actually thinks that she is not good enough to recieve your attention.

The Hurt Locker

I just finish watching The Hurt Locker. It is a good movie but I dont like it. The way it is filmed and especially the music used made you feel like you were almost there. Right where the bomb exploded, where you are caught in a cross fire, running along the streets with unfamiliar faces and language, the heat under layers of protection and the deadly silence. It is like you have to be very cautious about everything and you cant wait to get out of this crazy situation you are stuck in.

Most impactful scenes are when James failed to disarm the come tied to a man. One second you see the man hanging on the little hope he has to be set free, the next he is blown into thin air. The other one was when James stuck his hands into a boy stomach to take the explosives out of him.

We complain our life is damn boring here because everyday is the same thing. Now, I would rather life in this certainty than to live in a place where I dont know when I will be sent into the air in a million pieces. Love the peace and security we have now and say no the war. Say no to living in insecurity, violence, hostility and uncertainty.

Things that went through my mind during the show :
1. From Batman the Dark Knight: Nobody panics when things go ''according to plan''. Even if the plan is horrifying...upset the established order and everything becomes chaos.
2. From To Kill a Mockingbird: Nothing is more deadly than a deserted, waiting street.

Say no.

While you are walking on the streets with your girlfriends, a woman walks up to you. She has long hair, make up on, a fitting shirt, jeans and heels on. She starts telling you that she just got out of prison, gives you a glimpse of this torn and tattered card and tries to sell something she claimed that she made to fund for her schooling. She said she would prefer to sell the card she made (a very simple card with quotes printed on it) for $10 and hope that we will help her. Looking at our reluctance, she decreases the price and offered that we an give her any amount we want. Still, no gesture of reaching out to our pockets or bag, she appeals to our sense of guilt, telling us to give people like her a second chance in life and hopes that the society will accept and not look down on her.

At this point of time, one of your girlfriend took out her wallet. On after another, they did. And it just left with you and another friend who thinks that this is a scam. But due to peer pressure and the woman looking at you with intimidating eyes, breaking you down slowly, you submit to her approaching hand unwillingly.

I always tell myself to just walk away when such things happen but it is never easy.
I always tell myself to stand firm and say no but it turns out a failure everytime.

It is not that I do not want to give ex-prisoners a second chance in life. I respect and admire ex-prisoners who decide to become a volunteer and share their story, set up their own business and truly turning over a new leaf. These are inspiring stories that people should know about because we can learn something from them. Ultimately, this will contribute to a more sensitive, understanding and accepting society.

However, I condemn people who tries to take advantage of the public's sympathy. The way they put themselves are as though they are blaming the society for not giving them another chance and we are responsible for who they are now. They present themselves in a negative light that does not command respect from the public. These people will walk away with what they came for but will that set them free self-pity? Will that allow them to fit in without distrust and with true acceptance?

:)

Cool lady. Like her style and mole. Heh.

Myself

There is a price to pay for EVERYTHING.
I AM GOING FOR TRAINING BECAUSE IM GOING TO NZ!

Just tried to make caramel for my ice cream but kind of failed miserably. Well, the sugar did not burn or anything but the moment I put it on top of my ice cream, it harden. And on top of that, its bitter -.- Someone tell me why!? ):<

Im dying of art while wasting my time with GAGs.

Myself

Havent been very productive over the last 2 days and today. Only finised Geography of Food and Physics. Have not started on literature yet and I am not sure how I can finish 2 books by Wednesday. However, I'm not feeling very guilty because I am well rested and this is so much more important to me than to study. It is better to be alert and have your brain working in the examination hall then to fight to keep your eyes open and get your head to even START thinking. Also, when you are not fresh, careless mistakes will happen all the time.

I really like science a lot. I can do physics woarkout the whole day and dont feel tired at all but I can even do one chapter of humanities, like geography for example. Icant draw all day too, which is why I am going to get another 50 for AEP for mid years, again.

When I do not want to address or think about a question, I will be :
- ignoring the whole time
- pretending that I did not hear
- pretending that something more imporatant had just caught my eye
- scold whoever who brought the issue up
- shout and state that I am very busy now

All these, just to protect myself.

Examination Hall

It has come to this time of the year again, exam!

So many things can happen in a examination hall. My previous few encounters had left me dreading going into that place again. Sadly, I do not have a choice.

During the english exam, I most pulled my hair out because the girl beside me never stop shaking her legs. It may sound ridiculous but you can never understand how irritated I was because I cannot concentrate on comprehending my comprehension.

During the chinese paper, I started out rushing through the first part as I know a will not have enough time to complete the whole paper if I don't. I kept up that pace and it was all good until I chose to look at the whiteboard and the clock to know how much time I have left. Yes! I have another 30 mintutes to finish 3 questions! so I slowed down. Then, the teacher said through the microphone we only had 10 minutes left. I freaked out cause I still had 13 marks worth of questions left undone. All the while, I was cursing the teacher who wrote the time wrongly while trying to rush my answers all out, on;y to realise at the last few minutes, I saw the timings wrongly myself. Tell me who can be any more dunmb than me.

During the SS paper, I started out with my ball point pen as I can write really fast with it. But at the end of the first essay, I had to change pen as my handwritting was like those chine3se scriptures. The second pen I used was good but it ran out of ink halfway through my second essay. So did my third pen and almost for my last pen. Really, how much more dramatic can my life be!

And that people, is only two of the nine days I have to spend in the examination hall.