I am damn sad now. Dont know what has happen to my blog. Dont even know if you all can see this post because when i go to my blog, its nothing but white. Dont know when issit going to be ok. going for training later. Didnt run on my own. Worried about the 2.4 run later not so much of timing but if my left leg can take it or not. Something has been very wrong with my left leg this few days but i just cant make out what is wrong. school is starting soon and i have so many things to do. But i also dont know what things to do. Went to the library to borrow books for the research work but haven't finish reading them and dont know how to start the research work. Tournament is starting soon and we haven't bought our new shoes yet. Have a feeling that coucil will clash with netball much more times this year and there seem no room for discussion. Everybody is just doing witout thinking. I think i need a break. but where and when???

Went shopping for the past few days and bought quite some stuff.
But still have a lot more to go. :D
Finished doing my Chinese homwork already.
But still have math and the brisbane thing. -.-
Went to run this morning.
But stop half way cause my left leg broke down :(
Have a lot of things to do.
But not doing any of it now.

This coming friday and saturday spells trouble if they clashes.
Life sucks!

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISHED FOR CAUSE' YOU JUST MIGHT GET IT!

Went for kellock's training this morning. I kinda feel good about myself now, like i actually manage to drag myself out of bed this morning. i think i'm going to have muscle ache tomorrow morning:( i also think that i might get a scolding from my mother tomorrow morning when she wash the clothes and find out what state my awesome 2/1 shirt is in. I'm not even sure myself how it ended up like that. Then coach asked if pet, diandra and me could make it for tonight's match, playing with the seniors. I was fretting over if i should say yes or not cause i dont think i am like good enough to play with them. Later i go there and make a fool of myself X(
So decide to leave the decision to my mother.. In the end couldnt make it cause have family thinggy and instead got scolded for giving short notice. Now i kinda want to go for netball instead of going for the gathering:( It will be so boring there plus the only thing they will say about me is 'wah!so black huh!like malay like that!' Its like they have a problem with that or something. I think tan is a nicer colour then white...Hope diandra all the best!

I dont know what's wrong with me today.

friend:Have you eaten popeyes before?
me:For one second i thought it was popoeye(sp?) the sailor man. Never ate before.Dunno what it is.
friend:Its popeye the sailor man actually. Its a food outlet.
me: I read it as pop eye and thought that it was a sweet or something. Didnt realise it was popeye the sailor man :X


Now i keep calling popeye the sailor man pop eye the sailor man.get it??

Celebrated Pet's birthday yesterday and bought her something really useful for the future. Ate at seoul garden and paid about 30 each so we ate for 3 hours to make it worth it. But we smell rally badly after that, all from those meat and cooking. I'm actually quite a good cook:) Then didnt actually do much later on cause almost half of us did not have enough money atfer the meal.

I dont like my new hair cut, though its shorter and lighter now, its pong pong and i dont like it pong pong. And after what they told me yesterday, i kinda realise that i really cannot tie my hair and need tons of clips to just keep my hair in place. I look like a crazy girl now.

If i am ever organising a prize presentation ceremony, i will make sure that the place that it is help is big enough for the amount of people coming and the seats arranged are not so tightly pack that there are hardly any space for walking around, which is really important cause if the space for walking is very limited, then the participants will make lots of noise when they are going up and down the stage, interupting the ceremony. Also have to check the technical stff and make sure that the national anthem must be working, just in case have the mc to be a person who can sing if not something happens then the mc cannot sing and dont know the lyrics then its disastrous.

i like this paragraph from new moon.

There was nothing, really. Only nothing. Just the endless maze of moss-covered trees, so quiet that the silence was an uncomfortable pressure against my eardrums. It was dark, like dust on a cloudy day, with only enough light to see that there was nothing to see. I hurried through the gloom without a path, always searching, searching ,searching, getting more frantic as the time stretched on, trying to move faster, thought the speed make me clumsy... Then there would come to a point in my dream-and i couls feel it coming now, but could never seem to wake myself before it hit-when i couldn't remember what it was that i was searching for. When i realise that there was nothing to search for, and nothing to find. That there never had been anything more than just this empty, dreary wood, and there never would be anything more for me...nothing but nothing...

family affairs mary l blige

What should i get myself for christmas?

SAID I DONT CARE JUST WHAT YOU THINK AS LONG AS IT'S ABOUT ME
but sometimes its just plain hard to not care:(

NETBALL>

I am mentally drained.

C' DIV is the stage for you to shine when you have the skills, stamina and teamwork.
B' DIV is the stage for you to shine when you have everything, especially the passion for netball and the burning and yearning to win.

A chance is all you need to soar,
A mistake is all you need to fall.

When coach said ' Prove me wrong!', instead of getting fired up, i actually thought: Haha, saw through your plot. And now, i am guilty of thinking that way. I could feel that coach still has this connection with the team and didnt want to give up on us but we were not given her any glimpse of hope, showing her that we are worthy of all the things that she have done for us, which are the shadows of her temper. Im afraid that if we dont grab the chance now, it might really be gone. When its gone, i dont dare to think of the future.
IJ netballers appears to be formidable in the new look but makes a fool of themselves on court.
IJ netballers are so easily beaten by an opponent that they had thrashed not once but twice.
IJ netballers are just the puppets.

This a a serious dilemma. To give, or not to give...haix.

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving

light on david cook
spotlight jennifer hudson
i dont care fall out boys

I'M TIRED.

THE SIMPLEST THING IS THE HARDEST TO GRASP.

There are so many things going on this week.
Its kinda nice that i have things to do and the timing of the events work out just fine, too fine that threatens any last minute changes/problems. But at the same time, its kinda tiring and stressful especially when i am new to half of the events.

I finish watching hot shot already. Their passion for basketball and the bond between the teamates moved me almost to tears. I also found out that most of the time, I prefer characters who oppose the main characters at first then became the crucial helping hand for the main characters at the end.

I'm not sure what knocked me into thinking but i was really scared that when i look back at my life at a older age, i would remember nothing signification, that my answer would be ' Nothing much, just netball training and ... o.0', then dunno what to say.

Listening to simple plan now. Great band. Great songs. Love this today:)

CRAZY

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?(x2)

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Yesterday was a night of madness.
Initially i thought that i could have a good rest after the friendly/training where my knees were killing me but a call changed it. Immediately when into rushing mode, calling/messaging, asking/confirming, not answering/panicking, rushing/not watching shows. Finally its all done by 11, then forgot to ask mum about movie today-.-

Yesterday noon was full of excitement.
Had freindly match cum netball with chong boon yesterday at kallang. Was feeling a mixture of excitment, insecure and pressurize. But i guess it all turned out great, a few taps against a Tall GA and i dont think i have any mispasses. After yesterday, i came to realize that i really like challenges and would certainly do my very best to overcome it, i can be happy very easily if i wanted to but i consider others opinion too much and i am really short-.-... :(

Still haven solved ANY of my probvlems with Mac and it is really frustrating!
My inbox has like over 30 mails and i cant access to any of it and i badly needed to sent AND receive mails.
Clever me suddenly thought that i could use another e-mail address and everyone can just sent stuff there but i didnt think that i have forgotten BOTH my username and password, so went i through all the trouble, looking and typing, going through trail and error to search for the correct username and password. So i spent my whole morning trying to get things right while feeding the mozzies in my room. I just killed one-.-
Little things kept appearing when it cames to rainy days and they are never good things. My mum found 2 dead things - brown with 3 pairs of legs, has a foul smell that you can even smell it when you are not even a metre close to it, the sight of them crawling is just unbearable but them flying is just enough to kill an entire town of people, (know what im talking about???i hate to even type out its disgusting name) - this morning but no one killed them.
I think i prefer the 9pm show to start at 9 instead of 8. Its just to long, draggy and much for a day. If i was the person in charge, i would show an episode a day, making the audience craving for more of it the next day:)
AHH!i got bitten AGAIN-.-

Just change computer and it is so hard to get use to it, especially for people like me.
Having trouble logging on to my hotmail account, which denies me the ability to read my mails, which spells trouble as i cannot check if my fellow PSL has sent me the debrief and i cannot sent out all the propasals that i have spent so much time on.
Finished painting my room this morning and it looks kinda green now..Apple white. Going to ikea later on to buy shelves and have dinner.
Did a great run yesterday!
Dissapointing allevation results yesterday!
Muscle ache all over my upper body!
Will worry about the mail thing later!
Peace out!:D

This morning has been one of the best morning that i have woken up to since dont know when.

It was drizzling then, making my body feel chilly whenever i touch the sheets of my bed. The gentle breeze blew my hair into place. It was too comfortable to get out of bed, so i lay there, reading angela's incredible book, twilight, feeling blissful as the characters. When i finally decided to put the book down, i made myself raisin toast and a cup of hot chocolate. Just perfect for the morning. :)

Talking about breakfast, i still remembered the time in brisbane in my host family house with Melissa, we had green bean for breakfast-.- Having green bean soup for tea time now:)

PEPPERMINT CRISP ARE THE BEST CHOCOLATE ON EARTH!

This week just came and went. Soon will be the holidays. There is just less then one month to the start of yet another busy school year.

Basically learning how to write proposals now, i totally suck at it and i have not a single clue on what i am going to do for my brisbane independent study and how i am suppose to go about doing it. Have to let mrs tan and mrs fam read my first draft when school starts. Totally dead.

I came across this article in the newspaper yesterday. The huge penguins picture that came with it caught my eye. Its quite interesting.

The topic is about followship (first time i heard about it). It talk about how important followship was because nothing could be done successfully if we only have a group of competent leaders with no one to carry out the decisions they had made.

And the article also suggested that we should pay more attention to the people behind those leaders, the heros behind the leaders and they should receive as much recognition as the leader.

If so, wont prize presentation be such a bore because awards are given out to so many people, which might also mean that the award will not be as significant as it was before since everyone has it? ( Im not saying that it is a bad idea but i think there could be a better way of doing things)

Also, sometimes it is hard to look beyond the surface, at what was behind all the success. People tend to only look at the result and not so much of the process; its kinda wierd that the first thing that comes to my mind when i think of people who enjoy the process more than the results are those insane criminals i see on the television. Not so much of the words teachers use tell/console us, how the process and experience is more important than the physical things we are getting.

One point they made was absolutely relevant to me. Every leader is also a follower, for above every leader will be another leader (except for the one at the very top ).