crying is such a tiring thing to do...

I'm not the type to get my heart broken, im not the type to get upset and cry
cause i'll never leave my heart open never hurts me to say goodbye
relationships dont get deep to me never got that whole enough thing
and someone can say they love me truly but at the time it didn't mean a thing

my mind is gone im spinning round and deep inside my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip what's happening i stray from love this is how i feel

this time was different felt like I was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but no matter
what you'll never see me cry

did it happen when we first kissed cause it's hurting me to let it go
maybe cause we spend so much time and I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby maybe why im sad to see us apart
I didnt give it to you on purpose gotta figure out how you stole my heart

my mind is gone i'm spinning round and deep inside my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip what's happening I stray from love this is how I feel

this time was different felt like I was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart but
no matter what you'll never see me cry

how did I get here with you i'll never know
and never meant to let it get so personal
and after all I tried to do to stay away from loving you
i'm broken hearted i can let you know
and i wont let it show, you wont see me cry

this time was different felt like I was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and I've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry
this time was different felt like i was just a victim
and it cut me like a knife when you walked outta my life
now i'm in this condition and i've got all the symptoms
of a girl with a broken heart
but no matter what you'll never see me cry,
all my life

i just hope i can be like her sometimes..but its really tiring.

i just realise today that i have spending more time in school than at home.that i have been spending more time on work, achieveing stuffs and neglected my family...i am going at a really fast rate and they cannot keep up with me but yet they dont want to tell me cause that will slow me down.i am doing well in school as a student but i think im a horrible family member.i do not update them frequently about my progress in school..didnt really tell them what was going on in my school life...i have council, cca, house comm, studies, AEP, projects....do i still have time for myself, more importantly my family members.im ok with not having much time myself cause i chose this path and i will walk through this.but what about my family???

i imagine losing them when i realised that im neglecting and it really hurts when i think of that..
im going to finish a good result slip for 08/09 . then 09/10, i will sacrifies my duties for my family.it is worth it.it is never too late to realise and make a change.