tired.lethargic.sad.restless.dead.
these r what im feeling now.
early in the morn go to the scho for some model thing that stupid lisa koh volunteered me.
then lunch.
then netball carnival.
guess its ok just that im really sorry about alycia that i 4got to tell coach that she can only make it for one saturday.
so she have to come down today even when she is not feeling well.im sorry alycia. :(
it rained today.
a rain that i didnt appreciate it and didnt know why.
the weather was good at the beginning.
just a litle little sunny.
then the clouds came.
then sky turned dark.
drip drop drip drop.
down it came.
then splitter splatter.
stop game.
waited.
waited.
waited.
warm up.
played.
post pone to 2 AUG!!!!!!
any idea what day is that???
its honours day.
the day where all efforts are regconise.
the day that i receive the 1st and 2nd prize of my secondary sch life.
then again, this may be my last chance to attend honours day.
dont think i wil be able to do so well, like achieve so many things in my another 2 yrs.
this is probably the peak of my sec sch life.
but i just have to give in to netball AGAIN.
it seem like netball is everything and everywhere and everytime.
we are still as busy when its off season.
friendly match with australians.
carnivals.
meaningless friendly match with the bball ppl.
but because i really like netball, tt y im willing to give up almost anything for it.
but stil i will feel a bit sad.
had a really long and nice talk with angela in the train.
a topic that i hav nvr discussed with anyone.
not in prim sch cus i was nt the 'victim'.
she really made me think about who deserve what and who do not deserve what.
that how sometimes life sucks.
just because u didnt realise that THAT was the chance to prove yourself, u r no longer in the running anyhow.
u dunno when to next chance is comin or nt or maybe never.
how sometimes no matter how hard u work that it will never pay off because of something that u dont hav and probably wil never have.
something that is lacking that even if we want to do something about it, we cnt cus there is just no solution.
just what is fair???
how realistis is the real world.
how things just carry on no matter how u feel.